I'm not a happy girl

I'm tired. I'm tired of working, I'm tired of going to school, I'm tired of never having any money, I'm tired of constantly being worn out from working and going to school, I'm tired of never having any time to just relax, I'm tired of the cold weather, I'm tired of being stressed out, I'm tired of not having a good book to read. I'm just tired!



Shockingly I don't have school work to do this weekend and we aren't doing anything on Saturday. I think I am taking a well needed, long overdue Meghan day. I don't have enough money to get my nails done, or get my hair done, it's not pool or beach weather, and I still don't have any good books, but I will figure out something to do that lets me relax. Of course this is after I go to the gym and clean up around here. But still. The day is mine!



Sunday is Easter. I hate Easter. This year we are spending Easter with Andrew's family which means I have to drive two hours to Stratham NH, spend time there, and then drive two hours home. Yeah... that sounds fun. Oh wait, nope, no it doesn't. Physically being there is fine, but the 4 hour driving time leaves a lot to be desired. I'm not religious by any stretch of the imagination (I'm probably the opposite of religious) and Easter doesn't mean anything to me. I'm not even one of those lapsed Catholics who goes to Mass on Easter and Christmas. Hells no! Easter Mass is terrible - only slightly surpased by Easter Vigil. I would rather go to 6 regular Masses then even go near a Mass during Holy Week. To me, Easter is a day that I have to drive for 4 hours to eat ham. I can eat ham at my own house. At least when we spend Easter with my own family, I only have to drive for a total of 2 hours. My brother and sister-in-law are not celebrating Easter this year. Just not celebrating it. They are staying home and not driving anywhere and not even having any ham. It's just a regular Sunday to them. I am so jealous. I can't do that because my mother would guilt trip me into doing something. She won't do that to my brother because she is afraid of breathing the wrong way near him, since he tends to sulk and gets offended over the silliest things ... but whatev. The point is - he isn't celebrating easter. He is my hero right now.



This has been a very very long week. And as I previously mentioned, I'm tired of life right now. Some things have me pretty drepressed and I'm in a constant state of stress, and I just need a break. I would like an entire weekend free, but I'll take Saturday.



I wish I was here: